addiction – Living My Life

Back To The Beginning

Posted on August 27, 2017August 27, 2017 by lenka in addiction, fear, forgiveness, Me Unknown, Recovery, resistance

Back to square one for me. Depressed after another relapse. Relapse in all aspects of my current life situation. Had to ask myself some serious questions instead abt who I am. Do I really even know? Do I keep just searching for who I am in the people around me and validation from external sources? Do … Continue reading Back To The Beginning →

Deep Breath….Just Breath

Posted on August 8, 2017August 13, 2017 by lenka in addiction, Recovery, surrender to higher power

I was feeling pretty shitty today, just down and angry. I was angry at everyone, everyone in my life. For nothing in particular, just for not being like me, i guess. That's the reason i was feeling like they were all against me. It's like they were telling me that i just need to admit … Continue reading Deep Breath….Just Breath →

WHERE IS MY BLUE PEN

Posted on August 7, 2017August 13, 2017 by lenka in addiction, fear, Recovery, resistance, surrender to higher power

As I said I surrender my will to the Higher Power last night, something inside of me didn't like it. The word surrender, I didn't like it. Why the hell should I surrender. Does the Higher Power even exist, or was this all orchestrated so I can say I surrender. So I would have to … Continue reading WHERE IS MY BLUE PEN →