Today I woke up feeling a little bit tired, not like I needed more sleep but internally drained. Considering that it's been a busy week at work due to the holiday season and other factors, as well as Friday being the day for my final exam for school, feeling drained made sense. Regardless of the … Continue reading A Day With The Ducks
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Choices…Definitions…Labels
So I'm taking this survey for college for career center and I get to this question. My first reaction was getting a bit flustered. I didn't expect this question to have this many choices. The choices written out in front of me made me start thinking, at some point when I was 12 I did … Continue reading Choices…Definitions…Labels
Back To The Beginning
Back to square one for me. Depressed after another relapse. Relapse in all aspects of my current life situation. Had to ask myself some serious questions instead abt who I am. Do I really even know? Do I keep just searching for who I am in the people around me and validation from external sources? Do … Continue reading Back To The Beginning
The Never Ending Search For Identity
Recently, I'm coming across people searching for who they are more often than I ever have in my life previously. Maybe I'm just noticing it more because I've been more dedicated than ever to try to figure out the same thing myself, maybe I recognize it for what it is when I see someone going … Continue reading The Never Ending Search For Identity
Deep Breath….Just Breath
I was feeling pretty shitty today, just down and angry. I was angry at everyone, everyone in my life. For nothing in particular, just for not being like me, i guess. That's the reason i was feeling like they were all against me. It's like they were telling me that i just need to admit … Continue reading Deep Breath….Just Breath
WHERE IS MY BLUE PEN
As I said I surrender my will to the Higher Power last night, something inside of me didn't like it. The word surrender, I didn't like it. Why the hell should I surrender. Does the Higher Power even exist, or was this all orchestrated so I can say I surrender. So I would have to … Continue reading WHERE IS MY BLUE PEN
Acceptance
What I've understood in the span of the past two days is that I did in fact have to find myself, but not in the way I originally thought it was meant. I had to find myself by accepting who I am, that nobody made me this way and I didn't make myself this way, … Continue reading Acceptance
The Best Kind Of Mornings
This isn't what I was originally going to write about today but my morning didn't go as I would've preferred and that usually sets the rest of the day in the same direction. The best kind of mornings for me are spent in silence for at least the first hour after I wake up. No … Continue reading The Best Kind Of Mornings
My First Blog…
I cannot believe I actually did it, started a blog. I've been writing in my journal every day up until this time and then my boyfriend suggested for me to start one. I'm not too sure if he was joking or not but while I was waiting in the lounge area of his gym for … Continue reading My First Blog…
